Friends

: wynter_blues; December 19th, 22:34

I think i've expected too much of others.
I'm sorry.
I will not do it again.
I'm sorry.

I'm trying to accept, and so far, i managed 2.
My guilt is eating me alive.
I dont want to be.
I'm sorry, sorry for all the harsh things i've said to/of you.
I really am sorry.

Maybe thats why i'm having an infection.
To know the blood they had shed, to know the pain.

I'll wait for you to say, hop on, let me give you a ride.
I'll wait for you to say, hello, you're stupid, thats why.
I'll wait for you to say, i was lying to you all along.

was that you across that street?

: thatletterc; December 19th, 23:53

hahha okay wtf???
ive figured out that you only look for me when you fucking need help???
or when you have got nobody around to hear you cry????
hahahhhahahhahaa????
you caught me off guard again????
fuck much?? hahha thanks

O COME ALL YE FAITHFUL

: sinkingtheships; December 18th, 8:49

e.
f.

a. boat shoe flats
b. pullovers
c. recycled yakpak backpack
d. tank top dresses
e. flat leather sandals (not gladiators PLZ)
f. tshirt dresses

christmas is about jesus, but i still covet

divided we fall

: feephi; December 17th, 23:03

Current Mood:: fked.

sweet talker? fk it. i bring irritation and anger. the right words at the right time? fk off. even swearin wouldn't sound as bad as what i said. fk it. gonna watch peter chao before i screw further and start havin gangsters goin after me.

fk me.

geek me up

: wynter_blues; December 17th, 21:32

Around a month of working, which means around 30 days or so.
In such a short period of time, i feel like my world is falling apart.
Its the first time ever, that i feel so lost.
i hate this. I feel so helpless.
Lately, i cant even make any decisions, thinking everything is a dilemma to me when my answer is already so clear.
I feel like my guts are twisted into so many knots.
Jealousy, envy, once again.
When will this stop?
Perhaps when i become pretty and popular and perfect.

If only i'm pretty.
If only.
If only i'm clever.
If only.
If only i'm capable.
If only.
If only i am the one whom others compare to.
If only.

I shall not let this get to me.
I shall not be affected in any ways.
I shall not feel betrayed.
I shall not feel confused.
i shall not care.

On a lighter note, Good Progress Award! Yay! i'm gonna go get money! :):)

geek me up

: wynter_blues; December 16th, 21:13

Envy.Jealousy.Hate.
I.Hate.This.
What.More.Do.You.Ask.For?
What.Do.You.Still.Want?
Tell.Me.
Please.

I'm craving for maggie mee, for strawberry shortcake, for jumbo cream puff, for oreo, for strawberry london roll, for chocolate chip cookie dough, for strawberry cheesecake, for lollipops, for jelly, for rainbow ice-cream, and for the greasiest fries now. how?
I need to get my secret santa present real soon.

And i'm emotionally crushed, to the earth.

i love you is a clever way of sayin okay let's get it on

: feephi; December 15th, 1:10

Current Location:: macs

Current Mood:: high

Current Music:: high and dry - radiohead

HAHAHAHAHA somethin hit me tonight that really made me burst out laughin.

on a less hilarious note,
i'm gettin sick of my every move bein watched, my every action, be it good or bad, bein interpreted as the fkin F word. and no, it's not fuck. i hope it doesn't come to the extent that me buyin food from canteen aunty is labeled F-ing. yeah i sound like i step big fk, but i really wish i was a smaller fk. can't believe i wanted to retain.

now i can't wait to get out of this shithole of a school. for goodness sake, focus on your studies; this ain't media school, you ain't have to do reports and commentaries.

let's dismiss that small matter aside. there's a more pressin matter at hand:

WEDNESDAY MATCH !!!

let's use the money we won to buy ruth a bigger shirt

champions!

defended our home ground rajah court

can't wait to hang out with these people

issac

i see iggy tryin to hold the mvp's hand

Lame ttm.

: amandyyy; December 15th, 0:06

Ernest made me 'sad'. So i said you need to make me 'happy' again. Guess what he said?
"you turn upside down and look into the mirror'' (in my head, i was thinking... probably ghost or something hideous like that)
"did you see a smile?''
"turn that frown into a smile''
I was like wth, couldn't help but laugh at this lame-ness.
then he said "My job is done''
WTF?

geek me up

: amandyyy; December 14th, 23:14

HELLO BUNNY :D
HELLO SCUMMY C:

HEE, it rhymes and sounds a lil whimsical put together. i likey C:

Untitled,

: thatletterc; December 15th, 14:31

I didn't need fortune
I didn't need fame
Just a lil shelter from the rain
A hand to hold onto
When times gets tough, you'd pull me through
I didn't need a castle made up of stones
Just a lil heart to hold onto
That's all i ever needed
For loving me for who i am

life is a maze

: y_ourserenade; December 14th, 2:45

( XXXXXXXXXXXXXXX )

11 days to Christmas. Oh how time flies. 2010's on its way. Am I ready? I don't know when will I ever be. I don't know when will be the time where I'd be saying Yes, I'm ready for the next year! I guess you'll never really know when you'll be ready yeah? Like how people say that things happen for a reason? I've been reflecting about myself the past couple of days. You know, the usual sleepless nights. The nights where you can't do anything but... just stop, think and reflect. I realized that there's nothing much to think about. I've been having weird dreams lately.. okay I think they are more of nightmares. The ones where you just can't do anything to save yourself, where a silent cry escapes from your mouth and the next moment, you just realize it happened and there's nothing you can do about it. You can't cry and mope your life away despite the pain, remorse and loneliness. Anyhow, skip the 'seriousness'. I've gotten my pay today yay and um, it's my second last day of work cus i'm flying off in 10 days! I don't wna leave everyone here :( But what to do? So... I know it's a tad too early to ask but what are some of your new year resolutions?

No secrets worth lying.

: amandyyy; December 12th, 22:59

Current Music:: Bad Romance, Lady GaGa

There's no such thing as BFF. Or rather, these words aren't in my dictionary since the third grade. Frankly speaking, i try to keep up with the world by claiming that i do. Its not that i don't want to have a best friend or anything crazy like that. Its just when you're going through life and have certain expectations of such, you tend to be let down ALOT.Then you'd start to complain all the fuck about it. And start to think too much to the extend of wondering if me myself is worthy to be someone else's bestfriend to start with.

I do remember back in kindergarten where i was with 2 other girls who would 'follow' me because i'd always had candy in my bag. Then once when i've forgotten to bring the candies, both ditch me for another twat whom i had a strong dislike from the moment he stepped into class. useless jerk.

Then it happened in primary school, when i was pretty much a loser because of how much i resembled a boy. The only people i mixed with are what nowadays you'd labelled them as - bunks/butch/lezzies etc.

Then much later in secondary school, it was more prorocative, more bitchy. The quarrels got more intensed, involving more innocent party, suicide and tears. Come to think of it, it was pretty stupid, and why the dumbfuck did i even cared about that?

So in conclusion, i reckon ''BFF'' is the most stupid and immature label anyone can give or can have. Maybe because there's none that I can get along with 101%. Someone who'd share/bitch/listen about anything or everything under this galaxy sipping cocktail or just someone i can count on to get by and just be contented with life.

I won't deny that there are ones that i have this feeling with someone sometime or other, but it never lasted more than a spark, and thats that. So here I am, left alone just like when i was in my mom's womb.wtf?

I'm sorry, i'm sucha loser.

geek me up

: wynter_blues; December 12th, 22:42

I don't know what is going on now, so blatantly distinctive. i want to salvage this, but i don't know how. Why don't you tell me? Tell me what you want. I'm willing to compromise and i hope that you do. Or perhaps, it's time that we all move on, to a different life. for me, without you. For you, without me. It hurts me to see that i'll no longer be in your life, but maybe it'll be better for you? so that you don't have to pretend any longer, and me neither. Goodbye, i guess?

Work, as usual, is tiring. And i really hate all the arguing and blamings. screw it.

school is gonna start. i dread school now. so many homework i've not done yet. how!

I'll miss work and the people at St. Regis after i leave, especially, 10.

need to get presents soon! :):):)

can anyone really love young

: feephi; December 12th, 22:26

Current Location:: room

Current Mood:: bored

Current Music:: belle of the boulevard - dashboard confessional

took me kinda long to create it but here it is

http://millenniafutbol.blogspot.com/

check it out. MI soccer blog. you can either go there for team news, reports, or the beckham face in the background. whatever reason, do tag it :)

I EAT ALOT

: sinkingtheships; December 11th, 22:13

Current Music:: RUFFLES HAVE RIDGES

OF THIS

CAN'T STOP WON'T STOP

geek me up

: thatletterc; December 10th, 22:19

im sorry, i havent been myself lately

still alive

: y_ourserenade; December 8th, 1:04

Current Mood:: alive

Current Music:: Falling For You x Colbie Caillat

Hii busy girl here is still alive. Okay basically I’ve been busy with… what you know? Oh, no you don’t! :D Okay… I’ve been busy with work (oh yesss finally I got my first job HAHAH) and um, diploma classes, training and um… meeting up with random people? (okay maybe not random cus I meet like the same people most of the time but whatever I’m happy!) And for those whom I’ve yet to catch up with, please call/text/twitter/fb or whatever me! I’ll make time for you sweeties! <3 Karish, Mag, W, my twins Ja & Deen (hahah we’ve been saying this since for like what, 4years now!?) !!! Okay I better run now before the sleepless nights begin. I’m going to enjoy my sleep tonight! Will update soon with lots of visuals! Yayyyyyy

goodnight
xx

too serious too soon

: feephi; December 7th, 23:41

Current Location:: room

Current Mood:: geeky

Current Music:: watch the sky - something corporate

played poker with mom and brother and fkin lost

No one can help me, I can only help myself.

: amandyyy; December 6th, 22:24

Shit, i've been too busy lately to blog. and this irriating moolah thing is getting on my nerves. I'm racking my brains, draining brain juices just thinking about it. AH FISH! Its gonna be on May' 2010. ):

XOXO,
fuckfuckfuck

i think you're cute choi min ho(:

geek me up

: wynter_blues; December 6th, 21:16

It started downright crappy, total bummer. Being tardy, arguments, and walking out. hell, and i thought the day would get worst. But thanks to him, for the memory of his soft voice and his killer smiles. thank you, for the sweet smiles you gave me to make me melt, and thank you, for the smiles you gave which did funny things to my insides:) i miss it. and sadly, tmr i wont be able to see it. sighs.

and thank you huimin for coming down today. it totally brightened up my day, and thank you andrew, for eating with me and making me laugh during break.

i miss school. why is that so?

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